on the most random streets
We can keep talking like this, without saying what we mean. There are dead ends everywhere on the most random streets. We both know.
Someday, somewhere, I’ll be looking out the window of somebody else’s car on a rainy night in July, and I won’t know you’re gone yet.
There won’t be a fox wandering the grass in August while we drink too much on the front porch, music playing from your truck, or icicles falling from the gutters onto the snow.
We won’t take the canoe out onto Lake Champlain in October, where the leaves can’t land or look at each other the way we did all of March, even when nothing was happening anymore.
Your hand won’t touch my back, and we won’t watch the clock for June, waiting to spray each other with sun lotion again.
We’ll be two missed phone calls at different times— one from me, one from you, too many years from now on a Saturday night in the middle of dinner. No voicemail. No number listed to call back.
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This felt incredibly intimate. I love that you included exact details like the name of the lake. Beautiful.
"I'll be looking out the window of somebody else's car on a rainy night in July, and I won't know you're gone yet." That might be the best line about anticipatory grief I've read in a long time. The seasons carrying the whole relationship is quietly devastating.
Great to have your voice here on Substack, Casey. Subscribed and look forward to reading more. I would love you to do the same, if my writing resonates.